First I Must Rest. Rising through Motherhood.

Part 2 - Mother's Day reflections

Continuing with my reflections on Motherhood, as we approach Mother’s Day weekend. I believe that Mother’s Day is a beautiful moment to reflect on those we have received mothering, loving, nurturing support from in our lives, and also those we’ve been able to offer care, tenderness and compassion to. These truths are what make honouring this day more universal, and a reminder that our world is so desperately in need of mothering, from each of us.

The piece below is something I wrote in August 2021. Remember that summer, in the depths of the COVID-19 pandemic? I had been homeschooling my children for a year and a half, all of our nervous systems in a constant state of fight or flight. My children were nine and ten years old, and I felt very lonely and isolated, as many people did at that time.

Despite the fact that we are no longer in the midst of a global pandemic, overwhelm and anxiety with other stressors in our world abound and I imagine that others may resonate still with what I was feeling at that time…

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From August 2021:

I am tired
I am weary
Really... I’m exhausted and depleted
How did I get here again?

I have dreams and visions
But no energy to bring them into the world

Like a weary and withering plant, I need to nourish myself first

Good food
Water
Sunlight
Movement
Connection

Slowly...
Slowly...

I will begin to rise again
I will begin to shine again

I have lost my glow and vibrancy

Add in some iron and vitamin b
Essential for energy
Essential for strength

I am not alone
I don’t need to do this alone

Amazing women around the world support me
The love and courage of my grandparents surround me from their places in the heavens
Mother Earth always steady beneath me

What other support will help me flourish and grow in the way I know I can...
In the way I desire...
In the way I see myself becoming...

Allow
Receive
Be held

I am a mama

I am tired
But I will not be here forever
It seems like a long time
But really it is just a blip
A small moment

What is the most loving thing I can do right now?
I can rest
Rest and receive

When I rest I rise
Oh do I rise
And with joy
With strength
With support
With passion
With energy
With love

I will rise
I will rise
I. WILL. RISE.

And I will live
Oh will I live
This one beautiful and glorious life
I am living

And today
To truly live and feel alive...

First I must rest.

xo